I was a depressed mum trying to make money in my graphic design business while raising two boys. I remember clearly sitting on my bed one day, sobbing and saying to myself, "This isn't me and I don't want to be like this!" I was drowning in the should's, expectations, responsibilities, demands of everything I'd created in my life.
I tried many things, including therapy and natural products (I'm a strong believer in the connection between gut health and mental health) - which are amazing tools - but it was Human Design that helped me to 'find myself' again.
If you've never heard of it, I guess you could say that Human Design sits in the realm of Astrology, Enneagram, Myers Briggs, maybe even psychic readings.
Human Design gave me permission to be ME and, on a very basic level, inspired me to focus on JOY. No matter how big or small. Each and every day.
The more I learnt about myself through Human Design, the more I found myself saying, "OMG YES . . . this is so ME!" And I realised that I need more of this in my life. I'd forgotten all this good stuff about myself and it registered that I don't make time for being MORE ME because I'm letting life get in the way.
I need more of ME because that is what actually brings me joy!
Human Design helped me to realise that if I'm going to make an impact on the world, even on a small scale, I need to move myself to the top of my list. And to focus on MY JOY because that is what will impact everyone else.
How F#cking Amazing Is That?!
Imagine if all I focussed on each and every day was bringing myself joy!
With that being said, I closed my graphic design business. I realised that I can't be ON for someone else because ultimately I need to be ON for myself. And I gave myself permission, every day, to do the things that lit me up . . to trust my body when it felt drawn to something.
The posters were created from my joy!
Plus my desire for people to see how truly amazing they are and to be reminded of their unique gifts. Because I know how easy it is to forget.
I want you to know that underneath all the layers of your life, you are pure magic. That when you give yourself permission to be MORE you, you will fill yourself up with so much goodness that you'll feel like you have purpose.
Let's say it together: "I give myself permission to be MORE ME!"
If you need help to rediscover the things to make time for, so you can 'feel like myself again', I would be honoured to create a poster for you.
"It's so gorgeous to look at and to resonate with. Even if you don't believe in it (Human Design), it gives you that feeling of a little bit of magic and a little bit of 'there's more for me!'" ~ Ellie B
PS. I would love to keep in touch! If you feel the same, pop your details below.